"The Beginning"

As promised, I wanted to add posts to here that I wrote when we were trying, and then before the news was out. So here's the first round...from before we knew I was pregnant.

September 25, 2010

Whelp. We are officially “trying.” It seems so weird to write those words, after so many months of it “not being the right time.” Even though it seems like such a little step in the whole process of getting pregnant, being pregnant, birthing a baby, and raising said baby, it feels like a very significant step.

My first semi baby-related purchase (and by this I mean the first purchase when Baby Pod is even a moderate reality and not just a “someday” thing) was prenatal vitamins. I’m not sure if other women have experienced this, but even that seemed surreal. Standing in the vitamin aisle of Target (hoping no one we know happens to mosey by), comparing various parental vitamins, making sure the ones I pick have the most of everything for me…and eventually Baby Pod. Weird. Amazing, exciting weird. But still weird.

Jeromy and I had dinner and game night at friends’ Kirstyn and Dave’s place tonight. The topic of babies was definitely in the air, given that fellow WOWZA Jackie just gave birth to the first WOWZA/MANZA baby, Gavin, earlier this week. We gushed about how cute Gavin is, and how fun it is to see Jackie and Tom as parents…and took guesses at who might be next.

It’s no secret Jeromy and I want kids…and have for quite some time, but we’ve decided to keep the “trying” thing a secret (or at least as much of a secret as it can be, being that both Jeromy and I have been very vocal about wanting kids for awhile). I can certainly understand now why people like to share this news…it’s exciting!

We’re early on in the process, and I’m constantly reminding myself that the reality of this is that it could take a long time yet before we even start on the road of pregnancy. But here’s hoping it happens sooner rather than later. :-)

October 10, 2010

I knew, as admitted in the previous post, that pregnancy can take long time. I knew that pregnancy right away is a major rarity. But I’m still a bit disappointed that this month wasn’t the month. It’s stupid, I know…but it’s there all the same.

I’ve spent the time since we started trying being so attuned to my body. Any symptom may have been “the symptoms.” Now I know that they weren’t. I’m preparing myself to face other months like this…and working on having a better attitude. It’s just hard when pregnancy and babies seem to be everywhere…except this house. We’re just at the beginning, I know…but this is something we’ve wanted for so long…

December 1, 2010

I hate this time of month…where I feel like I’m just waiting to be disappointed. Sigh. How can people get pregnant so often ON ACCIDENT, but people who try and really want to don’t?